Redirection

My emotions, feelings, thoughts about secular things seem to have taken over. I care too much what people think, and I'm certainly too critical of myself because of it. The feeling of worthlessness that pops up in my brain every once in awhile needs to be redirected to unworthiness of the love our Savior gives. The pain I feel from rejection needs to be taken away, washed away by the blood of Jesus.

but for some reason it's too hard.

I create the illusion to myself that what people think about me is important. I think to myself that things people do to me matter. I'm constantly trying to please people.

All in all, what I'm saying is I need to be pleasing for Jesus, and all those things come into place. This sense of worthlessness that creeps up on me all the time needs to be completely redirected and washed away. This pain in my stomach from people constantly unintentionally hurting me needs to turn into confidence to confront the issues.

Conclusion: Pray more. Read more. Act more. Worship more.

how?

Discipline more.

how?

more accountability.

where?

everywhere.

when? from tomorrow on. :)

Goodnight.