Well, Its crazy how much you appreciate your school when you have to come home for so long.
I don't like it here anymore. I mean, friends are great, and I've even gotten closer to a few friends here these past weeks, but I really want to go back.
My father doesn't really talk to me anymore. Maybe its because I'm different than the rest. My brothers are both very sporty, my older brother isn't really into the whole Christian thing, but since he is engaged and living with his girlfriend, my dad likes him a lot right now. My younger brother gets a lot of attention now that I am out of the house. But, I think its because I'm not afraid to express my opinions and views even if he doesn't share it.
Like when I was coming home from school, I had asked to not have the whole family come get me because I had a lot of stuff, but they did anyways, and he thought it was inconsiderate of me. The same day we stopped at Big Boy (yum?) and my dad got angry because I had a different view on tipping waiters than he. (I'm slightly nicer than he is). I feel alone here. I don't like all of the rules, all of the expectations, I just want to be myself.
Its Christmas, and my father doesn't even seem to mind if I'm there or not, but it has been a good one.
I'm not worried though. I know God is in control, and keeping watch on this whole thing, that is why I'm not freaking out, but if you could pray that would be lovely.
We've never been close, but its never been like this.
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Yep it's christmas--
I was up by 8:30 showered and was back in bed by 9:15
Woke up at 1:30pm.. had family time..
settled for a nap at 4:30pm
woke up at 7pm..we played cards.. we talked about stuff.
Uhm there are still Gifts under the tree waiting to be unwrapped. It's not a priority but giving GOD the day, and having the chance of being a family...
I am not sure I be here next christmas, not sure how I be. It doesn't matter. Today was awesome even though I slept most of the day. While family mingled, and did stuff. SO Marc I appreciate you when you talk the real deal, so it might not have been as one imagined, but it still is a cherished day! I know you will look back and say it was a kewl day, and someday in the future things will mend with the family. SO your Marc Anderson, one with a constant smile, yep your not perfect and neither am I. I like your smile, and your smile is because you love Jesus!
Thanks Brother for all you do!
While being home I've realized that while people may not understand where I'm coming from because they haven't had the same experiences that I have to try, there have been times when I haven't been doing as well, to show them how I'm different not in a disrespectful way (judging or annoyance, etc.) but just in Christ love and through life. And also to pray for those that don't get it for God to open up their eyes and hearts to see as He does.
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