So many thoughts run through my head, yet I can't even begin to make them sound intelligent.
Have you ever thought of how you make your friends? Do you choose them because you think they are the coolest? Do you choose them because you'll be seen by others in a different light if you're seen with them? or do you choose them because you can just tell that they care for you? Do you even choose them, or do they just happen...just appear, or do they insist until you give in? Or do you simply just become friends because you're forced to be around them because of certain situations?
What do you think a friend should be? Should I be able to get frustrated with a person that is my friend, or should there be no reason to be frustrated? Should a friend be someone that without a doubt would do anything for me?
Am I a man of many companions?
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I've been thinking so much about what a friendship should be like, and to be honest, I'm sick of selfishness. Now this worries me because I've often been told that what bothers you is something you do, yet it is something I strive not to do. Do I get annoyed with selfishness because it's something I'm focusing on, and notice more? Or am I annoying with it because it's something I am?
but people are different.
No friendship is the same, I guess. But should they all have the same attributes? or at least some?
I think I've come to the conclusion that people really need to focus on their friendships, analyze them, and really decide if it's worth it. Because even if you may not think there is anything wrong with it, the other person may be hurting because they don't think you love them.
This is what I'm getting at: Think about the other person. If you're there friend, you should know them.
So take the time to try and understand.
this is one of the most frustrating things about my personality. I do this, at least I try to do this, and I try to please people. Especially the people that I love. And when I don't get back what I give, I automatically assume that people don't appreciate me.
Better is open rebuke then hidden love.
Encourage, people. Encourage the heck out of your friends. Authentic praise! (yeah, Dr. P). Honesty is fantastic, also. But please, for crying out loud, do it in a loving way. I'm so sick of sarcasm. Somethings its hilarious, but it hurts people. Sensitive people are hurting because you made those other people laugh.
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Lately, my heart hurts for my friends who don't know Jesus. People who are so engulfed in stuff. In money. In people. I wish they would realize that stuff won't last. That money won't last. That people will last, they just may not be going to the same place as you. I just wish I could do more to save them. Shoot, I can do more. Why don't I? I guess I'm just too comfortable.
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All this being said, I have amazing people in my life. I'm encouraged all the time, yet it's by the same people.
I hope that when I fall, someone will help me up. Because I don't want to be pitied.
Love
-Marc
If only the people who need to hear this would read it. They're probably too busy. Or don't care.
